10dpIUI#2

So I've been temping since Wed morning and so far I've gotten 98.47, 98.41, and then this morning on Day 10, 97.57. Um, could it be an implantation dip? I'm hoping and praying that it is. I don't know if I'm imagining cramping, or weird uterine feelings, but geez I'm going nuts over this 2ww. Maybe it's because it's real this time, the possibility that we may get a BFP finally. All I know is that if my temp doesn't go up tommorrow morning, it's probably over. Those two temps are the highest I've ever had during a cycle, normally my BBT runs well below 98, even during my luteal phase. Ugh, I hate this, over analyzing everything. Just shoot me now.

7DPIUI

So today is one week post IUI#2 and I'm sick, with a sinus infection most likely. Rob was sick last week and I'm sure I caught it from him. We got back from Disney last night. We had a really nice time, even though I wasn't feeling great. We went to Hollywood Studies and Magic Kingdom on Saturday, we were there from 10am til 12pm. We went on every ride we could and even got to go on Space Mountain, which has been closed for renovations for a while. On Sunday we spent the day at Dowtown Disney, just shopping around.

It's so stupid but there were so many baby things that I wanted to buy, but I stopped myself from getting anything else. When we went two weeks ago, I got a onesie and bib with Mickey on them, it's red, so pretty generic. I got one set for us and one for our friends who are PG for Christmas. It's stuck in the back of our hall closet with some of the other baby onesies I've been stashing. I'm starting to wonder if I'm just buying gifts for other people, not something I'll ever be able to use. Our friends will find out the gender around Christmas. I can't believe it, but I feel like we are losing them as friends just like I lost the friend I had a school once she became PG. We don't spend as much time together anymore, we don't talk as much anymore either. They've changed and we've changed. I really hate this.

I don't have any symptoms, I had some cramping a few days ago, but I'm not really reading into it. I'm just trying to prepare myself for the worst again. I'll probably start temping around Wed or Thurs and keep track of my morning temps. At least that will give me an idea of whether it will be a BFN again. I think if my temps start dipping, I won't even bother wasting a test unless AF doesn't show for a while. This is it, the last shot for a BFP in 2009. As the months go by, it's getting closer and closer to not even having a chance to have a baby in 2010. Our 3 year mark is rapidly approaching too. All these milestones, that I wish I could forget about.

IUI#2 and I'm Going to Disney World Again!

So Disney was such a blast we are using the 2 days left on our 5 day pass to go this coming weekend Dec 4-6. I used some of our credit card points to book a hotel, so our tickets and room are taken care of and we can just go and enjoy ourselves again. We are doing IUI#2 in the morning. I'm trying to just go in like it isn't going to work again, maybe I'll get an early Christmas present, a girl can hope. Wish me luck!

BFN IUI#1 and I'm Going to Disney World!

I would have posted earlier, but I just didn't want to talk about it. Obviously I got a BFN on Thursday which was 12dp, my temps started plummeting so I knew what to expect. AF hasn't come yet, but I'm cramping already, so she's on her way. Luckily instead of being bummed, I'm going to Disney World next Thursday spur of the moment with my roomie and her family. Her fiance is in the military so he gets mad discounts. Rob will get to come for the weekend, which will be wonderful. At least now I can ride on all the rides, drink whatever I want, and not care about it. I mean of course I'm devestated, but there isn't a damn thing I can do about it. We are moving forward with IUI#2 and also the DNA Fragmentation Testing for Rob, hopefully we'll get some good results on both ends. Maybe just maybe, we'll get a BFP before the start of 2010.

1 More Day til POAS

One more day, that's all I keep telling myself. Luckily Thursday is going to be busy. I'm going to the school early in the morning to print off a gazillion papers and then to the library. Then I'll come home around lunch and Rob and I will go to the fair. Hopefully we'll be at the fair for a few hours, eat some yummy fair food and then come home. Once I get home I plan to read some of the gazillion papers I printed off and maybe watch some tv. Then I plan on trying to get some sleep, not sure how well that's going to work out, but we'll try it anyway. At 6:30am when Rob gets up to let the dogs out, it will be POAS Time, and the wait will be over. I'll be 13dpIUI. Happy Birthday to me!

5 Days til POAS

I'm so nervous right now, just anxious to know either way whether this IUI worked. I've been procrastinating on my papers; I have to write one a week for the next 4 weeks. I've done 1 of 5, ugh, it's going to be a long November. My bday is coming up on Friday too. I think Rob is planning something, he's been a little sneaky lately. I think he's trying to do alot so that if it's a BFN, my whole bday won't be ruined. I can't say that if I do see that "Not Pregnant" that I've seen so many times before, I won't be devestated. This is the very very first time we have a real chance, all the other times didn't count. We didn't know about all of the other issues with MFI then. I have alot of twinges and tweaks just on my L side, which is the side I ovulated on, but I don't know if that means anything. It's probably me just imagining stuff again. Everyone warned me this would be a different kind of 2ww, they were certainly right. It's gone by so slowly, it stinks!

IUI#1 Beginning of 2WW

My first IUI went really well, didn't even feel it. Rob had a count of 60M swimmers with 60% motility, which I think was a huge improvement since his last S/A, then he only had 16M. I'm hoping maybe stress had something to do with it. I'm going to try and keep myself really busy the next two weeks and just hope for the best. I'll be POAS on Nov 13, my 27th b-day. I'll only be 13DPIUI, but I'd like to try, then if it's negative, I'll wait til Nov 15, Rob's 27th b-day and test again. Please please please let this work!!