Trial Transfer

Everything went super well with our appointment. I'm just beyond thrilled. The Trial Transfer went really smoothly and it was really neat to watch. I start Lupron on March 11 and we go back for our IVF Start Date Appt on March 16. A tentative ER and ET is set for the end of March or early April. I just can't believe it's finally happening. I feel closer than ever to my BFP. I will be on Menopur and Bravelle for stims and will also be on injectable Progesterone. Unfortunately Rob won't be able to be in the room for my ER or ET, but I am okay with that. Our RE has their own surgery suite right on the same floor of their offices and they are very conscious about infection and sterility, which is fine by me. Aaaahhh, it's really starting. Can't wait to share the journey with all of you, thanks so much for your support!

IVF Nurse Consult

Well AF arrived today and I'm ok, better than I thought I would be. I can't say I didn't shed a tear or two, because I did, but I knew IVF was coming. I called my RE and next Thursday we have our IVF Nurse Consult. I'll be doing an U/S and a Trial Transfer, which should be interesting. We are going to meet with our RE and several nurses and go over our plan of action and on all the meds I'll be on. I'll get some questions answered and go from there. I start my BCPs on Friday night and start the Antibiotics next Tuesday.

I think Rob and I have come to the decision that we will do genetic testing on the embryos if it is an option. With everything we have been thru I just don't know if I could bring a child into the world with genetic issues or other health issues. I just couldn't do it. I know for some people, especially those that are Christians, doing genetic testing may not be something you agree with, but it is up to Rob, myself, and God to decide what to do for our IVF. With Rob's condition and all my health issues, I just want to make sure we pick the healthiest embies to transfer. And besides it would be kind of cool to already know the sexes. But I think since we really want to do a 3 embryo transfer if it's possible we would put back 2 boys and 1 girl, and then if we ended up with 1 or 2, we still could wait til the gender reveal to know for sure what it's going to be.

I'm at peace with everything. I called and got the loan paperwork underway and will hopefully have the checks in hand by next week. I'm also going to try and get our taxes done so we can hopefully get some refund money back and put towards the IVF as well. Things are moving along and I can't help but feel that they are moving in the right direction.

Falling Into Place

There's so much going on right now. Rob had an interview for a manager position yesterday and it would be so wonderful if he could get the job. It would be salaried and he wouldn't have to deal so much with commission and worrying if he met quota. I think it would give him such a confidence boost and I know it would be something he would be really good at. I'm 1 week down in my last 2ww. I've been temping since yesterday just to feel like I'm doing something, but I am not reading into any symptoms or wondering if maybe I really am PG. I just wish I could finally become PG naturally and then we wouldn't have to take out a loan. Everything would fall into place if Rob got this new position and at the same time we found out we finally got a miracle. I know it is wishful thinking at this point. Becoming one of those lucky few who gets PG before doing IVF especially considering we are dealing with MFI would be amazing, but I know not to get my hopes up too much, it will only make things harder when AF shows. But on the bright side once AF shows, I will start BCPs and the IVF process will begin. Once I'm done with BCPs things will move really fast. I'm just excited to be getting closer and closer to being a mom. I know we are heading in the right direction, it's just a matter of waiting.

Last 2ww

So I had some cramps last Thursday (CD22) and thought that it was still early for AF, so I OPKed and it showed a smiley. So we went ahead and BD and will just hope this will be a miracle. Only crappy part is that it means I have to wait for another 2 weeks for AF to come so I can start my BCPs. It would be wonderful if we got that miracle pregnancy before moving forward with IVF, but I'm not holding my breath on that one. I will at least wait until AF shows before signing the paperwork for the loans. No use in getting a loan if I finally become PG.

We saw Rob's parents this weekend, just for a night, but we laid everything out about our IVF plan to them just to get their feedback. They think we are doing the right thing with the shared-risk program and that I've found the best loans and interest rates that I could. They have agreed to take back a loan payment we've been making since 07 when we moved into our house. They got us some money to help with some remodeling projects since they knew we couldn't get anything else after just getting a mortgage loan. This will at least help alleviate some of the financial strain that we will be under with paying for a $20,000 loan. They also told us they will help in any way they can if we get in a bind, but they can't just give us a lump sum of money. I certainly didn't expect them to, so them helping in any way is a blessing. I'm really thankful that they are being so supportive with everything. Unfortunately I'm still keeping my parent's out of the dark on alot of things. I'll probably only tell them when we start stims and when I go in for ER and ET for the first IVF. I'm just not going to get into with them about the financial aspects, b/c I know my mom would have a fit if she knew we were taking out another loan, but oh well not really up to them what we decide to do. Hoping that we can start our taxes soon and get a nice refund check. That would certainly help out with the med costs.

Financing and Family

Well we got approved for a loan for almost all of the IVF costs. We are going to be super tight for a while until I graduate and have a real job, but we are ok with that. At first we were declined by our credit union, but our mortgage company agreed to give us a loan, part of which will be against my car. That has me a little worried, but it was the only way we could get the most money. I also picked up my BCPs and antibiotic, now just waiting for AF to show, which she should next week.

I also got to speak to my Aunt today. I haven't seen her since my wedding. She's only about 15 years older than me. My parent's had a falling-out with my dad's side of the family many years ago, so I lost touch with most of my Great Aunts and Uncles and cousins. But I got to talk to her today and we are going to try and meet up over the summer. Even if I just get to see her and my cousins that would be nice. At this point I don't really care if my parents are involved in it, they are still my family. Basically my parents stopped talking to my dad's family after my uncle got involved in drugs and stole all of my grandmother's money, I mean all of it. There wasn't anything left for her funeral when she passed away. It was a really bad situation, but in the end I know my parents just thought they were protecting me. But now that I'm an adult, I think I have the right to see my dad's family again, especially my Aunt. I haven't seen my Uncle (the one with the drug problem) in almost 10 years, since my grandmother passed away. It's actually something I'm looking forward to. I know he made alot of mistakes, but I don't think that I should still be prevented from seeing him or my other family just because of everything that happened. I was so secluded as a kid, I was an only child and up until 10 years ago, I didn't have any first cousins. It was just me and my parents. Thank God Rob has a big family and I've become a part of it. I guess I'm just at a point I'd like to make amends and see everyone. I think it would be something I would regret if I don't do it now.