Monday, November 29, 2010

Last Transfer of the Year

So I had my CD13 u/s on Saturday, everything looked fine my lining was at 10mm, which is good. My transfer will be on Wednesday and we're hoping to at least put back 3 if we're lucky. They'll be defrosting on tomorrow, since they were frozen on Day2. I'm sure my beta will be around the 15th or so. I kind of feel like I'm just going through the motions at this point. I'm neutral when it comes to how much hope I have that this last one might work. I think the more time that passes the more I really just want to say f-it and let's do donor egg. I just don't want to wait any longer to get pregnant. I met with a therapist this morning. She seems pretty nice, so I go back and see her again next Monday. She basically told me that with my up-bringing, all the shit with relatives, school, and IF, no wonder I'm depressed/anxious. For now I'm going to go without meds, but if it gets to the point where I'm taking a break again and need to be on something I certainly will. I'll probably post once more about transfer day, but after that I'm going to be MIA for a while until beta.

9 comments:

  1. Good luck Melissa. Hope we get good news on the 15th!

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  2. Good luck to you Melissa. I understand neutrality, 100%. Thinking of you.

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  3. Thinking about you, and keeping you in my prayers!!! ((HUGS))

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  4. Keeping everything crossed for your transfer.

    So sorry I missed you last night. I'll be home around 9:30pm your time, if you feel like talking tonight.

    Hugs.

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  5. We will be almost-cycle buddies this month! Hoping and praying that this will be it for us both.

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  6. I can't believe your transfer is almost here. I completely understand about being MIA - Self preservation is very important in this journey. I will be thinking of you.

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  7. Best of luck with the transfer and know that you will be in my thoughts and prayers.

    Glad to hear the first visit with your therapist went well and I hope it turns out to be a good fit.

    Good luck on your break and know that I am here if you need support--email or call. I can understand taking a blogging break. Do what you need to do and know there are a lot of people cheering for you.

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  8. Good luck Melissa. I know this is scary having gone through everything that you have. I will be thinking about you a ton in the next few weeks. So glad you like the therapist. Remember is she gives you a book on how to get pregnant, ditch her right away! ;)

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  9. I hope this is it for you. You so deserve this. Good luck and do what you need to do!

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