Monday, November 29, 2010

Last Transfer of the Year

So I had my CD13 u/s on Saturday, everything looked fine my lining was at 10mm, which is good. My transfer will be on Wednesday and we're hoping to at least put back 3 if we're lucky. They'll be defrosting on tomorrow, since they were frozen on Day2. I'm sure my beta will be around the 15th or so. I kind of feel like I'm just going through the motions at this point. I'm neutral when it comes to how much hope I have that this last one might work. I think the more time that passes the more I really just want to say f-it and let's do donor egg. I just don't want to wait any longer to get pregnant. I met with a therapist this morning. She seems pretty nice, so I go back and see her again next Monday. She basically told me that with my up-bringing, all the shit with relatives, school, and IF, no wonder I'm depressed/anxious. For now I'm going to go without meds, but if it gets to the point where I'm taking a break again and need to be on something I certainly will. I'll probably post once more about transfer day, but after that I'm going to be MIA for a while until beta.
Posted by at

9 comments:

  1. RachNovember 29, 2010 at 2:09 PM

    Good luck Melissa. Hope we get good news on the 15th!

    ReplyDelete
  2. Glass Case of EmotionNovember 29, 2010 at 2:22 PM

    Good luck to you Melissa. I understand neutrality, 100%. Thinking of you.

    ReplyDelete
  3. happymomof4November 29, 2010 at 3:04 PM

    Thinking about you, and keeping you in my prayers!!! ((HUGS))

    ReplyDelete
  4. Melissa GNovember 29, 2010 at 4:27 PM

    Keeping everything crossed for your transfer.

    So sorry I missed you last night. I'll be home around 9:30pm your time, if you feel like talking tonight.

    Hugs.

    ReplyDelete
  5. AnnaNovember 29, 2010 at 4:52 PM

    We will be almost-cycle buddies this month! Hoping and praying that this will be it for us both.

    ReplyDelete
  6. CarliNovember 29, 2010 at 5:42 PM

    I can't believe your transfer is almost here. I completely understand about being MIA - Self preservation is very important in this journey. I will be thinking of you.

    ReplyDelete
  7. JamieNovember 30, 2010 at 1:52 AM

    Best of luck with the transfer and know that you will be in my thoughts and prayers.

    Glad to hear the first visit with your therapist went well and I hope it turns out to be a good fit.

    Good luck on your break and know that I am here if you need support--email or call. I can understand taking a blogging break. Do what you need to do and know there are a lot of people cheering for you.

    ReplyDelete
  8. Spit HappensNovember 30, 2010 at 1:12 PM

    Good luck Melissa. I know this is scary having gone through everything that you have. I will be thinking about you a ton in the next few weeks. So glad you like the therapist. Remember is she gives you a book on how to get pregnant, ditch her right away! ;)

    ReplyDelete
  9. AnonymousNovember 30, 2010 at 10:15 PM

    I hope this is it for you. You so deserve this. Good luck and do what you need to do!

    ReplyDelete

Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom)