Tuesday, June 29, 2010


Well I guess this is a milestone, I finally hit 100 posts. I wish this one was going to be more enthusiastic or that I was going on about how happy I was to be pregnant, but that's not the case. AF started on Monday night and has been really really painful. This might be TMI so if you don't want to read I understand. I passed a huge clot today and inside of it was a little cyst with a very small dark spot. I'm positive this was my embryo. I've never ever had anything like that before with any AF I've had these past 3 years. God, it made it so real. I just couldn't believe it. I said a prayer for my little embie.

I have another beta in the morning to see if my levels have dropped properly. If they have there's a chance the nurse may give me the go ahead to start BCPs again. I'd feel alot better and more optimistic if we went ahead and got going again. I know I need the rest, but honestly I was hardly 5 weeks and to me moving forward helps me heal more than anything else. Unfortunately if my number isn't good I may be forced to do the dreaded "Shot". We were planning on going to Charleston and to see my parents this weekend for our 5th Anniversary. We are hoping to leave Wed night and come back on Monday, but if the levels aren't down then my trip will be cancelled so I can get the shot and do more bloodwork. I'm praying this doesn't happen, Rob and I need this time away. Even if part of it is spent with my parents who drive me nuts, it's still nice to just get away. Here's hoping we get some good news for once.


  1. I am so sorry for your loss. I hope you are able to get away this weekend.

  2. Melissa, how you hanging in there? I am thinking of you...Call me if you need me. Love you.

  3. I'm sorry I'm responding to this post late, but I had read it and have been thinking about you. I hope your weekend turned out as something healing.

  4. Thought you might be interested!