This is my journey to motherhood. It's a bumpy road, but I'm traveling it whole heartedly.
Monday, December 27, 2010
I apologize for not posting more or commenting. I guess I'm just trying to keep my sanity together to get through these next few days. I don't think anyone can prepare you for the anxiety that comes over you when you're waiting for that first ultrasound. I'm so afraid that we're going to get there all excited, my RE will put the probe in and nothing will appear on the screen, just a black abyss that is my uterus. I can't shake this feeling and it's been keeping me up at night. I don't know it it's a way for my subconscious to prepare me in case something does go wrong, or I'm just a complete nut-job and just need to chill out. Either way, this has been worse than ANY 2ww ever! Don't really have any symptoms. I am peeing more often and get tired pretty easily in the early afternoon, but other than that, nothing else. I know most of the major symptoms won't start until later on, but it's still unnerving because I don't feel any different. I haven't had any major cramping, spotting, or bleeding, so I guess that's a good sign, but then I second guess myself and think that I should feel those things if everything is normal. So I have 2 more torturous days to get through and then we'll have to get up at 4am on Wed and drive the 3 hours to J-ville. God I hope it's going to be worth the trip.
My name is Melissa and I'm 28 years old. I've been married to my husband for six years. We've been together since we were 18. We started TTC in May of 2007. I've been thru 8 rounds of Clomid, 3 IUIs, and IVF#1 which all resulted in BFNs. FET#1 and IVF#2 ended in chemical pregnancies. FET#2 resulted in our little miracle Liam, born 8-17-11. This is now my journey through motherhood and past infertility.