Bittersweet

Things have been kind of hard the past few days. Our best "couple" friends had their baby on Monday morning. She got PG the first month off BCPs, didn't have morning sickness, or any other complications during her pregnancy. We went to take care of their dogs on Sunday night at around 11pm then went back to the hospital to wait in the visitor area for a few hours. We took them some food and then went back to our place too sleep. I got up around 8am and went back to the hospital to wait with their families. Rob joined me for a few hours too. Their baby girl was born at 11:30am and weighed 8lb 3oz and is named Cadence (Cadie for short). I had to go to the school for a few hours then I went back to the hospital and finally got the chance to go meet her. I held her for a few moments and it was so surreal. All I kept thinking was am I ever going to get to hold my own child? She was so peaceful; teeny tiny fingernails, beautiful little lips, so innocent. I left the room when they needed to check her over and I haven't spoken to them since. Rob and I have texted them and called to give our congrats and even asked if they needed any help. Our friendship I don't think will ever be the same. They have a new little one to take care of, and all of their plans will be based around her. I certainly can't blame them b/c I know that's exactly what will happen when we have kids, but it's still bittersweet. I am happy for them, but I have to admit, I cried when I got home that day. I cried because I wished with all my heart that it was Rob and I in that hospital room with our baby, not them.

I know we are getting closer, day by day, to our FET, but it's still hard to keep waiting. We have our appt on June 1, it can't get here soon enough.

FET#1 Has Begun

Well I got a lovely surprise after speaking with one of my best friends about the woes of Aunt Flo. Unbeknownst (don't you just love that word) to me, AF decided to show up at 11pm that very night. I have never been so happy to see AF!! I called the RE the following morning and have set up my CD13 U/S and B/W for June 1, and they tentatively told me my FET will be on Monday June 7. Gosh, June can't get here quick enough.

Our beach trip was wonderful. It was so nice not to have to look at a clock and be on a time schedule. We had alot of fun fishing and just being together. Rob's mom got a little annoying after a while, especially when she tried to tell Rob and I that the name's we liked weren't that great because we needed a stronger first name to go with our weird last name. Uh, excuse me??? Where does she get off telling us what to name our hypothetical children?? Anyways, I just let it go, b/c I didn't want to get into a fight over it especially since they were allowing us to stay at their rented beach house without paying for anything except for all the food for the week. I have to be greatful for that. We wouldnt' have been able to go otherwise. When we got home I told Rob if she even thinks about telling me about names again, I will set her straight.

Anyways, only done one patch so far, but by the 1st I'll be up to 4 patches every 2 days. What I didn't know was that I'll be on the PIO shots and the patches for the first trimester. I thought I was only going to have to do the shots, but I guess not. Hey, it's certainly better than more shots, one in the butt is certainly enough everyday.

Beach

I have been waiting for this vacation for months now. We are finally heading to the beach for a week of bliss. I am so excited. This week at the lab absolutely dragged by, it was such torture. I'm pretty sure I ovulated yesterday on my own. I was doubled over with cramps for about 10 minutes, and then they went away, gotta love those O pains. That being said, I'm still going to start my Provera on Monday. RE said even if by some small chance we get PG naturally, yeah right, the Provera won't hurt anything. Here's hoping the Provera does it's job and I don't have a greater than 40 day-long cycle. Once AF arrives I'll be calling to set up my CD13 U/S and B/W. I'll start my estrogen patches on Day 1 as well. This should be interesting, never done patches before so we shall see how it goes. I am thankful to not have to do 20 million injections before the FET. Gosh, it can't get here soon enough. Hoping our little embies will be strong enough to make it to blast so we can transfer 3 and re-freeze the others.