So I'm back from my trip to Chicago. It was so much fun, I wish I could have stayed longer, but back to reality. I got to stay with one of my good friends, who I hadn't seen in almost a year. We got to take a boatride tour of downtown Chicago, we went to Navy Pier, went to a haunted house on Navy Pier, went shopping, and I went to the Chicago Museum of Art. It was so nice, just to get away, not think about TTC, MFI, and IUI, which has been consuming my thoughts for the past few weeks. I did go to the conference for a few hours each day, but I spent most of my time sight-seeing. I got some great freebies, and some great developmental neuro books that will hopefully help me out alot.
I'm starting to freak out again. I finished my Letrozole, so far no side-effects to report, which is much nicer than everything I had going on when I was on Clomid. On Tuesday Oct 27, I go in for a follicle check at 7am, and then at 10am I get a phonecall consult with our RE to go over all of Rob's bloodwork. I'm so scared, I just don't know if I can take anymore bad news. But, there's not much I can do, and I guess knowing is better than not knowing.
I found out that one of my friends is actually 12wks PG, even though she told us two weeks ago. Of course the day after we found out they were PG, we found out about Rob's MFI and our less than 1% chance of conceiving naturally. I just don't really know what to think about it right now. I don't really want to be around them, if that makes me a bad friend then so be it. It hurts too much right now.
The Quiet Zone
13 hours ago
I don't think that it makes you a bad friend - it makes you human. For what it's worth, I find it really hard to be around pregnant friends too...and probably use an avoidance tactic more than I should. You're definitely not alone in your feelings.
ReplyDeleteI hope things go okay with Rob's bloodwork. We're dealing with MFI too - so I can relate to the pain of being told that there's little chance of conceiving naturally. Hang in there.
Welcome Back!
ReplyDeleteI'm glad to hear you had such a nice time, and a well deserved break from all the TTC crap.
I didn't have any s/e from Letrozole either. Tuesday will be here before you know it, can't wait to hear about your follies!
So glad you had a good trip and got away for a while. I need to do that. Nothing wrong with saving your sanity for a while. I hope your appointment goes well.
ReplyDeleteSometimes a trip (break) away from this crap is the perfect medicine to deal with IF. I'm so glad you had a good time. I am hoping for the best from your phone consult and the follie check!
ReplyDeleteI don't think you are a bad friend. Just human. You need to take the time to process her news and all of your emotions that go along with it.
ReplyDeleteI hope all goes well at your appt, and that things for this cycle go the best way possible!
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