IUI#2 and I'm Going to Disney World Again!

So Disney was such a blast we are using the 2 days left on our 5 day pass to go this coming weekend Dec 4-6. I used some of our credit card points to book a hotel, so our tickets and room are taken care of and we can just go and enjoy ourselves again. We are doing IUI#2 in the morning. I'm trying to just go in like it isn't going to work again, maybe I'll get an early Christmas present, a girl can hope. Wish me luck!

BFN IUI#1 and I'm Going to Disney World!

I would have posted earlier, but I just didn't want to talk about it. Obviously I got a BFN on Thursday which was 12dp, my temps started plummeting so I knew what to expect. AF hasn't come yet, but I'm cramping already, so she's on her way. Luckily instead of being bummed, I'm going to Disney World next Thursday spur of the moment with my roomie and her family. Her fiance is in the military so he gets mad discounts. Rob will get to come for the weekend, which will be wonderful. At least now I can ride on all the rides, drink whatever I want, and not care about it. I mean of course I'm devestated, but there isn't a damn thing I can do about it. We are moving forward with IUI#2 and also the DNA Fragmentation Testing for Rob, hopefully we'll get some good results on both ends. Maybe just maybe, we'll get a BFP before the start of 2010.

1 More Day til POAS

One more day, that's all I keep telling myself. Luckily Thursday is going to be busy. I'm going to the school early in the morning to print off a gazillion papers and then to the library. Then I'll come home around lunch and Rob and I will go to the fair. Hopefully we'll be at the fair for a few hours, eat some yummy fair food and then come home. Once I get home I plan to read some of the gazillion papers I printed off and maybe watch some tv. Then I plan on trying to get some sleep, not sure how well that's going to work out, but we'll try it anyway. At 6:30am when Rob gets up to let the dogs out, it will be POAS Time, and the wait will be over. I'll be 13dpIUI. Happy Birthday to me!

5 Days til POAS

I'm so nervous right now, just anxious to know either way whether this IUI worked. I've been procrastinating on my papers; I have to write one a week for the next 4 weeks. I've done 1 of 5, ugh, it's going to be a long November. My bday is coming up on Friday too. I think Rob is planning something, he's been a little sneaky lately. I think he's trying to do alot so that if it's a BFN, my whole bday won't be ruined. I can't say that if I do see that "Not Pregnant" that I've seen so many times before, I won't be devestated. This is the very very first time we have a real chance, all the other times didn't count. We didn't know about all of the other issues with MFI then. I have alot of twinges and tweaks just on my L side, which is the side I ovulated on, but I don't know if that means anything. It's probably me just imagining stuff again. Everyone warned me this would be a different kind of 2ww, they were certainly right. It's gone by so slowly, it stinks!

IUI#1 Beginning of 2WW

My first IUI went really well, didn't even feel it. Rob had a count of 60M swimmers with 60% motility, which I think was a huge improvement since his last S/A, then he only had 16M. I'm hoping maybe stress had something to do with it. I'm going to try and keep myself really busy the next two weeks and just hope for the best. I'll be POAS on Nov 13, my 27th b-day. I'll only be 13DPIUI, but I'd like to try, then if it's negative, I'll wait til Nov 15, Rob's 27th b-day and test again. Please please please let this work!!

Waiting for IUI#1

So it's on to waiting for IUI#1. Notice how I'm saying #1, yes I'm not being optimistic. With all the luck we've had these past 2 years and 7 months, I am not counting on a first attempt at IUI to work. It would be an absolute miracle if it did. So I'm preparing myself to be disappointed; not because I'm such a pessimist, but because I'm trying to protect myself from getting excited and then being let down again. My follicle check this morning went fine. I have several follies, and one large one on my left side. Still needs some time to cook though, so I'll be going in again on Friday, but OPKing til then. If I get a +OPK before Friday then I'll call in and we'll schedule the IUI. It would be cool if we did the IUI on Halloween. That would mean that we'd find out on my birthday or Rob's bday if it worked (Nov 13 or 15). Maybe a good sign? Rob's B/W results were good too, which was nice to hear. We still don't have any percentages on whether the IUI will work, but we may do some more testing.

Chicago and Letrozole

So I'm back from my trip to Chicago. It was so much fun, I wish I could have stayed longer, but back to reality. I got to stay with one of my good friends, who I hadn't seen in almost a year. We got to take a boatride tour of downtown Chicago, we went to Navy Pier, went to a haunted house on Navy Pier, went shopping, and I went to the Chicago Museum of Art. It was so nice, just to get away, not think about TTC, MFI, and IUI, which has been consuming my thoughts for the past few weeks. I did go to the conference for a few hours each day, but I spent most of my time sight-seeing. I got some great freebies, and some great developmental neuro books that will hopefully help me out alot.

I'm starting to freak out again. I finished my Letrozole, so far no side-effects to report, which is much nicer than everything I had going on when I was on Clomid. On Tuesday Oct 27, I go in for a follicle check at 7am, and then at 10am I get a phonecall consult with our RE to go over all of Rob's bloodwork. I'm so scared, I just don't know if I can take anymore bad news. But, there's not much I can do, and I guess knowing is better than not knowing.

I found out that one of my friends is actually 12wks PG, even though she told us two weeks ago. Of course the day after we found out they were PG, we found out about Rob's MFI and our less than 1% chance of conceiving naturally. I just don't really know what to think about it right now. I don't really want to be around them, if that makes me a bad friend then so be it. It hurts too much right now.